It happens every year, the week before Mother's Day. This year its many things pulling me down. I lost my mom in 2000. The year My husband and I started trying to have a baby. The next 5 years, dealing with fertility problems and not having my mom were so hard. I wasn't a mom and didnt have a mom. I HATED that day! Then I had my boys. 2 within a year! Now my boys dont know my mom and im sad about it. Don't get me wrong. I love celebrating being a mom because I LOVE being a mom. I just miss her. Alot! She is with me always, I just wish we had her with us.
Tomorrow I am going to my son's school for a Mother's Day tea. He is so excited. I am so excited. I dont get much time with just him so I am really looking forward to it.
all holidays seem to take a dour turn when you've lost someone you love and they are no longer there to share it with... :(
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